Only if you knew, you would be something else instead of a hoodie.

You’re strong, they said.

You always look happy, you don’t seem to be affected by all things around you.

You smiled at them.

You have always been like this, you’re always trying your best to be the most understanding person. 

You understand how others feel and you tolerate them even when you’re hurting.

You keep everything to yourself because you thought you don’t want to burden others when they’ve already been dealing with a lot by themselves hence you got better in hiding your real feeling.

You thought this is the best way to show your love. 

The best way to pour your heart out to those you loved dearly.

Until the day they used that as an advantage to sabotage.

They said you’re strong enough and you will get through it.

You’re the most understanding person in the world sure you will understand.

They said you’re a realist, you don’t dream on the unnecessaries and you know what’s right and what’s wrong.

You’re amazing and that’s why you don’t need anyone to worry about your false doings. 

See, what they don’t know is that you’re strong because you’re in the situation where you have to. 

They forget that you’re also human, you gets hurt, feeling insecure just as much as everyone else’s. 

You need someone who could protect you from all the harm or at least a shoulder to cry on, not taking advantage on you. 

You need someone who tells you that you can shed off the mask while you’re with them and be yourself. 

You need someone to tell you to allow yourself to feel everything and express your feelings whenever you feel like. 

You need someone who makes you feel like home. 

You need someone who asks you about your unrealistic dreams and trying to pamper you little by little to fulfil them. 

You deserve to receive flowers or small surprises from them, letting you know that you’re always on their mind. 

You deserve to be loved by them while you’re on your period, not sitting far away from you because you bleed. 

You deserve to get pissed sometimes when they don’t pay more attention on you.

But, only if you knew.

You were so understanding and he said he loves you so much for that. 

Still, you don’t deserve his attention or be his first priority to hold you tight and never let you go.

Instead, he gives you up easily like how you give up all the socialising just to spend time with him.

You’re just like his hoodies, that he will cling to you when he’s cold and need love but keep you in the dark when he’s warm enough to be on his own.

Only if you knew.